AutoethnographyUniversity life is impoverished at the most obvious level by diminishing levels of public funding, and this situation reflects (although not always among the public) a growing lack of interest in knowledge, an expanding validation of populism, a distrust of expertise, and an increasing acceptance of the troublesome idea that intellectual advancement is synonymous with greater political discernment – something that is clearly not in the interests of The Party. It seems that, Party-side, as long as the universities pose no threat to the hegemony, the best that might happen is that they be permitted to muck around under the impression that they have a valued part to play in the civilized society (and won’t they love that! Even the illusion ought to be sufficient). And the program of ‘reform’ proceeds sans inhibition.

Research alters its focus continually; methodologies change and adapt and are examined and revised, and the questions being asked are always under negotiation. The last forty years have seen enormous changes to musicology, as an inter-disciplinary approach has become more and more broadly accepted and encouraged.

Autoethnography is the new thing for people doing music research. You want to write about a musician? Fine. Go ahead. – Wait. You are a musician? Then why not write about yourself? Your experience is just as valuable as anyone else’s; John Cage was 27 once. So was Johann Sebastian Bach. They must have had a few thoughts, have dealt with a few experiences – so have you! Here, mine that field. Show us your gold.

Musicians should, it need hardly be said, have thought about who they are and from whence they have come. They ought to be in touch with a few influences, and even to have reflected on what those influences mean and why they are so significant. They can even have a think about how it is that they locate and annex influence, and what it is that motivates them to keep exploring. They should most certainly consider their relation to the place in which they find themselves, the time at which they are operating, and the community in which they feel most comfortable. Everyone knows that very few work in isolation, and to situate oneself is a key to finding a means to work. Even a hermit must have made a decision to dissociate, and the source of that decision is not without interest.

The origins of one’s creativity are compelling – to one. And by all means, broadcast them if you wish. Sign up at Blogspot or WordPress or whatever, and invite the world to witness your reflections, to share in your journey. Or, on the other hand, you could pop into Bookbinders and purchase a beautiful hardbound blank volume and commence inscribing your thoughts for just yourself. Bloggers, so-called, or web-journalists, or internet-diarists, share what they feel is manageable, what is sufficiently suitable for sharing. They cast themselves in the light they find most flattering – very possibly that’s what I’m doing right now – and readers can make their own conclusions from what they read, and form their own relationship with it. Arguably, private journal writers do the same thing, although they are prepared to wait for the audience’s judgement, and may not be around when it is delivered. But that’s all it is: self-portraiture of a tentative and negotiable nature, perhaps permanent, perhaps liable to revision, costing no-one anything and yielding no discernible reward.

It seems though that the universities have found a means for turning this to bounty, because here come the doctoral students with their ‘I began to explore improvised music after I heard Kind of Blue, one of the best jazz albums ever’ and their ‘The piano wasn’t really for me because I couldn’t march with it.’ Really? We need to know that? That promotes awareness and wisdom in the world? Grief, I’d been wasting time on Gesualdo, or Berlioz’s orchestration, or Schumann’s gender constructs in Frauenliebe und –leben. Or perhaps it’s simply the triumph of the tedious.

It’s not fashionable to argue that anything can be known at third hand; let’s face that you’re you and by being you you’ve fucked up any chances of understanding anyone else. But what if you could acknowledge your perspective even as a contributing factor in the research, while you endeavoured to find out about something different? Because if you were interesting, you should be trying to expand yourself, yeah? So why write only about your expansionist motivation while ignoring all that you find? I can’t think that there’s no defence for looking at other things closely, and even writing about them. If you want to find stuff out, make that the subject of your research. And look beyond yourself. You’re fascinating – I know, right? – but to history may be ceded the task of determining just how fascinating. And that’s ahead of us.

27/i/2015


PfeifferAt long last I’ve gone into the studio and recorded the program of music I performed at the Salon last May under the title ‘Reimagining the Sacred’. I chose Pughouse Studios in Thornbury because I’d been there before to rehearse and found the space sympathetic – not too large, not too small, and with a grand piano that boasted family history and has a character to match – and because I find Niko Schauble great company, and he’s in charge. I spent a day there, and recorded and mixed (which is to say had recorded and had mixed) the program before nightfall.

Recording used to be terrifying. In about 1992 I remember going to La Trobe University (which had a music department then, believe it or not) in the middle of the night* to put down tracks for an audition tape for the National Jazz Awards at the Wangaratta Festival. Sam Keevers was there too, and the engineers fixed those flat square microphones to the windows in the drum booth saying that if their lecturers had been there they’d have never been permitted to get away with it. I suppose those tapes still exist, somewhere; probably not in the Wangaratta repository, but more likely in a box somewhere in my own fragmented archive. I don’t think this was my first experience recording – very possibly there was something in the studio at VCA before that – but it was scary. The tapes roll, and you think ‘I have to get it right. It must be stunning. Someone is going to hear this.’

Silly, because whenever you play someone tends to hear it, even if it’s the neighbours, trying to get their kid to sleep and saying ‘not the fucking C-sharp minor again. He’s never going to crack that. Why the hell is he still trying?’

We move on. Now I’ve made a few albums, done radio work, accompanied others on their sessions and so forth, and even taped a few things at home. To record is simply to enable witness. While I can’t quite believe I went into the ABC studios and chatted with Andrew Ford before improvising freely,** or performed live to air with Kendra Shank after having known her for less than an hour, these things did happen, and I survived them.

The sacred program was intended, as I suggested before, to be something in the manner of a working backwards to first impulses. Free improvisations progressed to a point where music from my earliest memory was reproduced, and it was hoped that a relationship between the two might be inferred. The improvisations were not meant necessarily to resemble the written music, but it was hoped a certain variety of continuity might be apparent as ideas were worked through.

Before the recording I got into the habit of playing the hour’s music through in a single take, one end to the other with only brief breaks between the movements. Before the concert I had done the same thing, and I even recorded a few of the iterations. In playing, and in listening back, I was pleased that the hour could start from anywhere and negotiate its way towards ‘King’s Lynn’, before setting off from somewhere completely different in search of the music of Charles Wood, and so on.

The recording from Pughouse resembled the concert in its program: the landmarks are the same as were outlined in the post that followed the concert. But the improvisations inevitably differed, and this is the life in the music. The continual drawing from the known, towards the not-yet known.

I’m thinking about releasing this recent recording somehow. Are CDs still viable? Should I do a digital-only edition? Advise me, if you will. Here’s an excerpt for while you think it over.

*Literally. It was the middle of the night. Sam will attest to this.

**It may be that the improvisation came first. I don’t remember.

20/i/2015